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iamrusselljohn:

cyprian14:

naabutan ko pa to…

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NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION ~

*bumalik na sa pag-woworkout sa gym.

*iwasan na ang pakikipag-flirt. TAHAHA! (take note: iwasan lang, hindi tigilan.) ROFLMAO! XP

*bawas-bawasan na ang pagtetext.

*kumain ng marami.

*ayusin ang sarili. :)

“don’t focus on what you lost but what remains. don’t focus on the pain but how the pain shaped you. don’t focus on the failure but on the great lessons the failure thought you.”

it’s a new year. start anew.

thanks for cruising with me in 2011, hope to see ya

again in 2012.

iyelpot~

Masarap din pala ‘yung feeling na ibang kamay naman ‘yung hahawakan mo,

na ibang tenga naman ang makikinig sa’yo,

na ibang ulo naman ‘yung sasandal sa balikat mo,

na ibang mata naman ‘yung walang sawa na titigan mo,

na ibang bibig naman ang bibigkas ng pangalan mo,

na ibang tao naman ‘yung kasama mo.

Believe or not, I have already received five indecent proposals from the members of the third sex. There are other guys who are lean and good-looking yet they are going after me. I am thin and hideous. There are other boys who are way way better than I am so.. why me?

“Magkano ba Yel?” That is the recent one that I have received. ROFLMAO. How much is my body? How much is my rate for a one-night stand? Or on a much deeper context, how much is my dignity? Wtf. I am not for sale nor for rent.

Honestly, I am tempted to accept one, two or three offers for I really wanted to leave our house and live on my own for personal reasons you have nothing to do with. I also want to buy certain stuffs like shoes, a new cellphone, clothes and other material things labeled as wants but not needs.

Now.. I am enlightened. That’s the easiest way to earn money. Indeed. But I am firmly saying that I would not accept any offer EVER, no matter how huge it is. Engaging in this act will let you pawn your dignity or reputation, the bad thing is, you might not be able to redeem it afterwards. Dignity for money; Money for wants. That is the worst analogy ever invented by individuals who doesn’t care about themselves, who doesn’t mind if they are doing the right thing as long as they get what they want. Thanks for the offers. At least I know that my ugly face and thin body is being appreciated. Saliviate as long as you want. Sorry! You cannot taste Iyel Katatutan. I am on the right track. :D ROFLMAO :P!

-Mark Ielvin “Iyel” M. Catacutan’s Intellectual Property

I remember one of my classmates told me to take my eyeglasses off. She scrutinized me to death after doing so. Then she murmured, “Why don’t you just wear contacts? You look better without eyeglasses.” 

That is only one of the instances when people encouraged me to put this thick lenses away and start using contacts. I, myself, want to but everytime I go to the optical shop, I still choose this annoying yet very serviceable stuff.

I have been wearing eyeglasses for about six years now. Yah, that’s how long I have been in the geek or nerd territory. That’s six years of remembering where I put my glasses when I misplace it, of wishing that it has automatic wipers to clear of the moist after going out of an airconditioned place, of taking it off when I need to clean my face and of experiencing other hassles. Don’t worry. I am used to it. I’ve already mastered Eyeglasses 101. Again, that’s six years! How can I put this friend of mine away so easily?

Mark Ielvin M. Catacutan is not Mark Ielvin M. Catacutan without eyeglasses. It has been my trademark. It is a part of myself, a part of my life. I think I might be incomplete without it. The re-adjustments would be very difficult.

Contact lenses might make me look favorable on the outside. It might help me find the girl I can go steady with. It might increase my sex appeal. (Well. do I need it? I am already brimming with it.) ROFLMAO! Contacts may be very helpful but I will stick to the thick one which for the last six years, made my perpsective or outlook in life clearer. :)

-Mark Ielvin “Iyel” M. Catacutan’s

Intellectual Property.

I have been going to the gym for the past few days. Well, six times to be exact. Yah! Even if I don’t feel comfortable lifting weights. At first, I was happy that I have already started the so-called “reinvention” but as the days pass by, I am afraid I need to put an end to this endeavor.

I am frustrated. I can see nothing but regress. It seems like every time I go to the gym, I get weaker and weaker (which is of course, the opposite result.) I cannot complete the exercises or routines that I need to do. One instance, I almost drop the barbell and crush my own body. Good thing, my friend was there to help me. Weight training might not be really for me.

I think I should be contented with what I have and what I am but I am not saying that I wouldn’t do anything to be a preferable individual, it is just that I should not wish for something too huge. I must be realistic. I should stop yearning for something that is too infeasible. Besides, I only want to tone my muscles because of irrelevant reasons. I am insecure with other people. I also want to find the girl that I can go steady with, always believing that it’s the look that matters.

Doing certain things are just not meant for you. You should settle on where you excel, on what you do best on where you are the paragon. Of course, going out of your comfort zone is beneficial but if this act only gives you constant failure, think again. Maybe stepping out of the box is not a good idea after all.

With the constant advancement of technology, changing one’s look is not an infeasible task anymore. Believe it or not, if I had the money, I would gladly change my face to meet the characteristics of being a Prince Charming and be included in the list of handsome individuals.

I have always been tired of being ugly. I never get to experience how good it feels to be loved truly. It seems like the first rule in the girls’ manual Boys 101 is that you need to choose someone who is good-looking and who you can stare all day without being baffled. Okay. Arggh. I already broke the first rule so now, how can I win a girl’s heart?

Being handsome is a huge advantage when it comes to winning a girl’s affection. It’s the first thing you notice, the first thing you see. So do not be a numskull to say that the inner part of a person is more significant. Only few practices that philosophy nowadays and sad to say, it is also those who will not be given a chance to be a leading man or woman someday. Ugly persons are always the supporting cast or worst, just extras.

Heartbreak is really intertwined with being ill-looking. If was handsome, I know the girls whom I have loved before could have loved me in return. That way I could have never been happier.

It is not that I am being arrogant or too big for my own britches (nice idiomatic expression! I’ll use it more often!) but I know I can overpower other guys when it comes to substance or sense and certain skills or talents. However, reality truly bites. No matter how hard I try, the one with the looks would always bag the crown and the one who always fuss about his appearance will always be the sobbing underdog.

-mark ielvin catacutan’s intellectual property

lesstalklessmistake asked: Yo. Hehehhe. Edleen Baysa here ;)

at cute na maapeal na iyel naman ‘to! haha! asa!

Drinking alcohol is truly inevitable for juveniles nowadays. I said most because I still knew some individuals who have great conviction in refraining from tanking up. One even stated that he would never ever drink even a small teaspoon of alcohol.. and I hope he’ll be able to stand to that. Temptations are just lurking around waiting him to be caught off guard. Avoiding alcohol might be a tough and infeasible task.

I would not be a hypocrite to say that I don’t drink. I do.. but not to the extent where you would see me crawling on the floor and saying some crazy stuffs or doing wild things. I know my limitation. Besides, I don’t want to be labeled as a boozehound. I will not cross the borderline.

So why do I drink? Honestly, I am puzzled too. I do not know why I keep on doing something occasionally when I know that it will just make me blow, give me the headache of my life, damage my liver or get me into a fight or an accident. I know lots of other disadvantages but talking about the benefits that make me want to drink again and again, I am afraid I can only name few. 

Confidence. When the alcohol  gets into your head, you begin to act differently. It seems like you’re in an another dimension. Your self-esteem boosts up. I , myself, remember saying things I wouldn’t be able to say when I am not intoxicated. On the other hand, my friend who is a quiet person suddenly acquires the guts to talk endlessly when she gets drunk. Alcohol gives artificial courage which all of us need sometimes.

Escape. Alcohol makes you forget (mainly because it damages your brain cells) the painful things that happened in the past or occurring in the present time. Drinking serves as an escape to your stressful life but it’s not that you wouldn’t face your problems anymore. It is simply ditching out of the reality for a short span of time. Unwinding. Relaxing. Just having a break. And later on, be able to solve these issues easily.

Fun. Drinking is fun in a way that when you drink.. you violate the norms of the society. “A little rebellion. A little adventure. That’s part of growing up.” Thanks to Flynn Ryder of Tangled for that beautiful quotation. I gets boring when you always try or PRETEND to be the saintly one. Indulge into other things. Give your life some spice, a twist. The last time I got drunk.. I told my mother that I will just go to the mall to meet some friends and go home as soon as possible. But the truth is, I went to the grand eyeball of our clan and get tanked up. Occasional drinking will not give you the stigma of being a full time boozer. It’s fun.

I am not forcing you try drinking. Moderate drinking isn’t bad. You also get the chance to help other people just like what Jack Handey have said, “Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drink I feel ashamed.  Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams.  If I didn’t drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered.  Then I say to myself, it is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver.” ROFLMAO.

-Do not use this blog for your own purposes! This is mine. Mine! :/

1. Jordan Cray’s Danger.com (@1/Gemini7/)
2. Joan Lowery Nixon’s The Dark and Deadly Pool
3. Anthony Horowitz’ I Know What You Did Last Wednesday
4.Joan Lowery Nixon’s The Other Side of the Dark
5. Ted Peterson and Mel Gilden’s Cybersurfers #4: Cybercops and Flame Wars
6. William Sleator’s Singularity
7. Karin Slaughter’s TripTych
8. Bruce Richards’ Virtual Terror
9. AVI’s Wolfrider
10. Marion Crook’s Riptide

I was dubbed as a playboy way back then. But now, I doubt someone would even dare to call me that way. I am single. Single for the past three years. It’s not that I haven’t been in love. I have been. I’ve so much been yet the results were not satisfying.

There are lots of people who are ceaseless in asking me why I haven’t been going steady with someone. I have my reasons. That’s why I wrote this blog. To enlighten your mind that having a girlfriend would not be good for me. Well, at least.. for now.

First, money. That is what I lack of. You need to go out with her sometimes. Spend time together. Buy her gifts, chocolates, flowers and other stuffs. Stop saying that money is not needed in entering a relationship. It is.

The next thing is time. Since I entered college, I’ve never been busier. With the tons of projects, series of major subjects tat are about to come, I don’t know if I could still find time to think of someone else. I will just focus in my studies. I almost flunked few subjects last semester which I never want to see again.

Above all, I do not have PMA (Positive Mental Attitude.) I have always been a epitome of negativity. I am a certified feel-sorry-for-me-because-everything-goes-wrong kid. I always complain about my looks, fuss about how weak or clumsy I am or whine that being in the geek/nerd territory would not make her like me or that no matter what I do I will never ever be good enough for her.

I do not have the guts to even take the first step, to express my inner feelings for way down deep inside me I am afraid to be rejected. Fear of Rejection. The opponent that I have been battling out for so long yet I haven’t defeated yet. I know that we need to risk but risking means two things: to attain happiness or to feel hurt. I don’t want to be hurt again. I better stay in my comfort zone.

I am planning to make my own Facebook page and talk about the flaws of the government and other social issues present in our country. But I am afraid of being sued for libel or defamation so I better keep my mouth shut. Haha! Besides, I know I will reach the time when I can already tackle or discuss certain “stuffs”. The time when I can freely express my feelings and thoughts. Negate on the the things that are disadvantageous for our country or even for our humanity. I will be there. I just need to wait for my turn. For now, I will just savor my everyday life. Be with my trusted friends. Sing out loud. Dance crazily. Spend time with my family. Be happy. Cause if that time comes and I must exercise my freedom of speech in a more beneficial way, my life would be in peril. I want to be a journalist. I always wanted to be a journalist. A journalist who has the courage to unveil the veracity. One who will not get dispirited because of others’ threats. One who has the will to serve his fellowmen and even sacrifice his life for his duty. Yes, being killed is inevitable… but I will endure anything for my beloved passion. I am up for the challenge.